So many things are running through my head that it feels like I am gonna explode. What's funny is that my head always seems to be this way when I am nearing school or something that involves money.
School is starting soon, next Monday, and I am finding that I may be a little unprepared. I have to still get my books for my classes. I need to some how find a way to pay for my school bill so I can add the much needed Math 106 class I need and to top it all off are the bills that I need to pay. The one problem that I seem to have is that my job, which I currently work at the Tech Museum, is cutting my hours so I am gonna be making less that 20hrs a week. So how I am gonna pay for everything I am not sure.
I am just freaking out because I am finding that every time I find a little ray of light at the end of the tunnel I find it gets blocked by something and I kind of lose a little bit of hope. I am trying to stay optimistic but even that is proving to be a task all on it's own. I am slowly starting to understand why some chose pessimism, it's just easier to do. But then again I have a lot to proud/happy of, I am almost near the end of my time at West Valley Community College (with only a semester or so left) and I am looking at schools I want to transfer to this semester. Added to that, I am in a show (play) outside of the community college circle and starting to build up my resume, so I have a lot to happy about, it's just that this week is just looking like tight week.
With my hours being cut I am looking for a second job to fill the money void, so my choices are Starbucks or maybe even Carrows. Horrible choices I know but something tells me that:
1) I can both of those jobs no problem
2) They are very malleable, or so it seems, to my current schedule.
So as it stands I am still floating around trying to find footing. So hopefully as the weeks carry on there will be some answers.
What really is disappointing is that the mood in the office is completely depressing. Only three people got the new positions and the rest are left to fend for themselves, some welcome it, others are little less than pleased about it.
The times are just so shitty right now, I am surprised that optimism still exist.
